Blue Blink

I will look away and wanly smile

            to shake the blues away

            to let myself forget

But I will look into your eyes again

Shake my hand, hold it tight

            feel the warmth it can offer

            feel the strength it has acquired

I will look away, take it back

            clasp it in prayer

            and hope a miracle happens

And I will shake your hand again

See me smile as the world overwhelms me with beauty

            as I treasure the things I have

            as I look back to memories so fondly

I will look away and smile some more

            as life will smile at me

            as love will smile at me once again

But I will smile for you again

Hear my laughter, hear its joy

            hear the crisp in its sweetness

hear what has not been heard for so long

I will look away, smile away

            cherish the laughter  of years gone by

            enjoy the memories we’ve made

I shall laugh with you again

I know all these will not bring time back

            opportunities  wasted in hesitance and inhibition,

            they will not bring him back…

But let me gaze into your eyes and see

let me hold your hand and touch

Let me smile at you and smile back

Let me hear you laugh that I may laugh along with you

For I cannot be with him

Nor he be with me today

Nor in my life’s uncomfortable solitude

But it is that pair of eyes that met his gaze

            those eyes that laid on my beloved,

            beheld him and saw what he saw…

It is that hand that shook his hand,

            that warmed his palms, patted his shoulder,

            supported his every stumble

That is the smile that met his,

            which comforted his sorrow and warmed his heart

That laughter is the one that reached his ears

            that lightened his mood

            that brightened his day

I cannot do all the things that you’ve done with him

I cannot be with him, nor can he be with me

But let me look into those eyes again

And let me see the eyes

that saw the one I have loved so much.

August 1999

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